everybody keep telling me it's your loss... that am i a great girl, smart, beautiful, nice... that i have everything it takes and that any guy would be happy to get me... every one keeps telling me that i deserve better than you, and that you don't deserve me... everybody keeps telling me it's your loss... and i'm tired of it! As much as i would like to think about what you're loosing, i can't avoid but think about what i am loosing too... and that is the part no one ever tells you... nobody ever comes and tell me what i am loosing too... because if i fell for you it's because you had something to give me... it's because i felt you were worth it... and i am loosing that too...
i spent the weekend trying to find someone that tells me you're not being a jerk... someone that tells me that what you've done is perfectly understandable... i searched... and everyone had the same answer for me, the same answer i gave you before, saying that no, what you did is not alright...
so yes, you are probably loosing me... but i am loosing much too... and my loss hurts....
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Yes, it hurts. No, it won't stop hurting tomorrow. You may put up a pretty face, smile at people, lift up your ching and nose whenever you pass him by and even deceiving yourself into thinking you're over the whole shit.
It hurts everytime. But I can tell you that sometime from now you will stop thinking about it every waking moment (and even dreaming about it). Eventually you will end up thinking of about it every other day (even if it takes over half a year...). Then once a week. And then you will stop thinking about it altoghether.
And yes, you will find someone who likes you for who you are. Even the little things you don't like about yourself will probably end up being his favorite traits about you.
So yes, it will hurt. But it stops someday, and when it does, you will look back and be grateful this whole shit made you stronger. And then you will be more grown up and able to fully commit to another relationship.
Always here if you need me :)
My words second Lia's.
Its not an easy ride by any means. Losing someone who you love and more importantly, who has been a part of your life for a significant number of years, is never something that can easily be forgotten.
I know that everyone, including myself, yearns for some magical event (or person, or anything at all) that will make it "all ok" again but, 12 months after my breakup, I can say that the only thing....is you.
I've never told anyone this (I guess its always good to get these things out) but for many nights after hearing "I don't feel the same for you any longer" I would cry at night in my bed and tell myself "its ok Jaime...there is someone out there who loves you and will never let you go". I'm not ashamed to admit to this because I, like everyone else, am human and have the same depth of feelings.
I haven't found that person yet but deep down I still believe that one day, I'll meet her.
These days I live alone and try to keep myself busy during most weekends but you know....there are those days I wish that there were someone sitting beside me on this sofa. Its moments like these that I remind myself that I don't want someone beside me...I want the right one beside me.
PS: I've supressed memories like this for ages now....and now its all coming back :\
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